Currently Coveting No. 1

This the beginning of a series dedicated to what I’d rather be wearing and/or pieces I’d love to own.

Since quarantine, I have been trying to be very intentional about my spending habits. I realized I was spending wayyy too much money by the sheer number of amazon boxes arriving at my front door. I am resolving to spend less money on frivolous, unnecessary items. This doesn’t mean I’m not buying stuff; I very much am. For example, last month I bought a pair of hiking boots. This was a necessary purchase because I didn’t previously have a pair and the ticks this year are really bad! (I saw one jump out of the grass on on to my dog! EEEEKKKK!!! I scraped it off with a stick, but Jesus was it terrifying!) Anyways, long story short, this is a series where I can statisfy my need to try out new things, outfits etc without actually buying anything. Win-Win!

shirt | belt | hot pink bracelet | beige bracelet| shorts | sandals | nail polish

Many of these items are recommendations from other bloggers.

  • Shirt – This shirt was recommended by Amanda John from Strawberry Chic. I love her youtube channel, linked here. She shares great recommendations for luxury looks and affordable prices! I highly recommend her blog and youtube channel.
  • Belt – I think this belt would be such a cute accessory to any outfit. With a little French tuck here and a little French tuck there, this belt is just a darling addition to any outfit. You could pair it with jean shorts, a flowing midi summer dress, or a short and fun summer romper. The sky is the limit! Also, I just love anything scalloped (including my potatoes)!
  • Bracelets – These bracelets were recommended my Kate Bowman from Lonestar Southern. I have to say, I think she’s my favorite blogger. I just love her posts, and personality. 10/10 would recommend. Quick Note: these bracelets are expensive at over $60 a piece. I wouldn’t buy them for myself, but I think they’re so cute!
  • Shorts – Confession Time: I was straight up LUSTING for these shorts! I think they’re so cute. I want them so so so sooooo badly. The catch? They’re $128! I don’t even pay that much for an entire full-leg-covering pair of jeans. I’m saving up for these bad boys! Also these were recommend by Amanda John who swears by them. She says they are her go to. Recently, Krista from Covering the Bases reviewed these shorts and says she loves them more and more each day!
  • Sandals – These sandals were recommended both by Amanda John and Katy Roach from Living My Best Style. Katy is another great resource if you’re looking for affordable stylish clothing options.
  • Nail Polish – This is my all time favorite nail polish color. I love it with all my little baby heart. It’s just so good! I wear it in the winter, fall, spring, and summer.

Sincerely,

Marie

 

How I am Studying for the AP Chemistry Exam

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This year has been crazy. Amidst all of the craziness that happened this spring, I totally blew off studying for my APs. This year I took two APs: AP United States History (APUSH) and AP Chemistry (AP Chem).

APUSH has been one of my favorite classes this year, so I didn’t really study for the AP as I had done well on all of my assignments (DBQs, SAQ, MC, tests etc.).

Chem on the other hand is a whole other beast. I love chemistry. I really hope. I hope to minor in chemistry in college, but boy has this class kicked my hiney this year. It’s been rough. I love my teacher, but it often feels like I don’t know what I don’t know. This is the scariest position to be in as a student because it’s unclear what you should do when you don’t know where your weaknesses are.

And ladies and gentlemen (+ non binary gentle-folk) , that is why I have put off studying for the Chemistry AP until 6 days before the make up exam. (I decided to take the make up exam because I was seriously unprepared for the May date)

Anyway, now I have no other choice, but to prepare for this exam. Also, studying chemistry is a very convenient excuse to not focus on my very, very sad math predicament right now.

Y’all. I promise I really am a good student, but this quarantine is doing stuff to me.

The Plan, as promised

I made this plan based off of the idea of active recall. I’ve been exposed to this idea from many different youtubers. If you want to learn more, I highly suggest you check out Janice Studies, UnJaded Jade, and Ali Abdaal.

Step 1

Make a plan. I created this google sheet so outline my goals and tasks for the next week until my exam.

My plan made using google sheets. I’m using the “Karla” font – my current fave!

As you can see, I have listed all of the units being covered on the exam this year.

Step 2

On AP Classroom, my teacher has opened all of the FRQ practice problems for us to do, so that’s my first step of studying. By taking the FQRs I can check my knowledge and see where the gaps are. Although I hate being and/or feeling unprepared, the act of grasping for the information, even if you can’t find it or it’s very time consuming/hard is valuable to building up the pathways in your brain to make the retrieval of that information in the future easier. Geez, what a sentence!

Step 3

I check my answers for the FRQs. When I check my answers, I write down the correct answer, the explanation, and where I went wrong/why. This process helps you identify where you went wrong, and helps you to have better reference materials in the future. I’ve actually gone back and looked at old practice problems and seeing where I went wrong helped me avoid that mistake or recognize it when I made the same mistake again.

Step 4

If I am understand the content, I will move on to take the Schoology quiz my teacher posted to make sure my understanding is solid. For those of you who don’t know, Schoology is an online school management system similar to blackboard, delta math, classroom dojo, and google classroom. In Schoology, your teachers post materials such as syllabi, study guides, test scores, quizzes, and homework. Schoology is the backbone of my school.

Step 5

If my understanding is incomplete then I will watch the AP Live Videos on youtube, linked here. These videos are a fantastic resource, and I highly recommend them, but they are super time consuming to watch. However, I have not found another source of such high quality videos that teach to the depth of APs. I also like Bozeman Science videos, but they’re a bit hit-or-miss with AP Chem, linked here.

Step 5

I label my mastery on the google sheet. Green is good, I definitely understand it. Yellow is a bit unsure, but I kinda go it. Red is Oh my Jesus, send help!

Overall, this is my study plan, we’ll see how well it works. I’ll update y’all in an upcoming blog post post June 2!

Having a plan is so important. It just makes everything feel more manageable. It’s like you’re no longer shooting into the dark. With a plan, you can see the target. It may be a tough shot, but you can see the target. That’s all you need.

Wish me luck!

Sincerely,

Marie

Dealing with Disappointment

Yesterday, I competed in an online Congressional Debate tournament. It was States. I was so amped up and excited. I thought I had a real chance at placing in the top three. I didn’t. I got sixth.

I was incredibly disappointed, sad, frustrated, and angry. I spent the rest of the day “licking my wounds” and processing my own disappointment.

First, I yelled and screamed. That lasted like a minute because I was pretty beat from a long day of competition.

Second, I sat in bed, wallowing. My mind ran in circles beginning and ending with “What could I have done better?”, “What’s wrong with me?”, and “Why did the judges like x competitors’ speeches over mine?”

Third, I cried. I had a nice good cry. I refuse to cry in front of other people, but when I’m alone and need a release crying is a great option.

Fourth, I journaled. It was a short entry about half a page in my A5 size notebook.

Fifth, I took a nap. I genuinely think there isn’t a single problem that can’t be made better by taking a nap. I loveeeee sleeping. I think I might have been made to sleep. Sleeping is key 🔑!

Sixth, I ate my favorite snack: strawberries and Nutella. There’s nothing like your favorite snack to cheer you up when you’re feeling low. Be careful not to overeat as that might make you feel even worse. Remember: there’s NO shame in going back for seconds, thirds, fourths or even fifths!

Seven, I declared to myself and my family that I was “over it”. This declaration was helpful because I decided to be done with wallowing and self-pity (which is fine in moderation). At some point, you just have to move on, so I moved on.

Writing this post now feels cathartic and renewing. I’m letting go my disappointment and resolving to spend my time on things that will make me feel good!

Disappointment is shitty, but you’re not! You will get through this!

Sincerely,

Marie

It’s OK if you’re struggling.

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It’s okay if you’re struggling. I am too.

This is a hard time. It’s hard to be productive and feel good all the time, most of the time, or even some of the time.

I struggle to focus every day. I have a hard time even starting my work, much less actually doing it. And that’s okay. We have to be kind to ourselves. It’s the only way we’re going to be able to get through this time.

Here are so ways I’m practicing being kind to myself

  1. Not beating myself up when I have an unproductive, depressed day.
  2. Eating healthy foods – so I can avoid the groggy and gross feeling I have when I eat too much junk food. Some of my current favorites are celery with peanut butter, carrots with raspberries, and orange slices.
  3. Journaling – I already have a whole post on this linked here, but this saves me every day. Having a place to air your feelings unfiltered is essential.
  4. Going on walks – Sometimes I have to force myself out of the house, but when I get outside, I feel so much better.
  5. Reading – Right now I’m reading The Female Persuasion by Meg Wolitzer. So far, I like it a lot.
  6. Crocheting – the simple repetition of crocheting helps me to quiet my mind. I also like to listen to an audiobook while crocheting. Right now I’m listening to James Madison: A Life Reconsidered by Lynne Cheney (former Vice President Dick Cheney’s wife).
  7. Writing letters – I have started pen-palling to my reverend and friend. I absolutely love it!
  8. Meditation – I can’t say enough good things about the Headspace app! It’s a gamechanger!
  9. Maintaining personal hygiene – No one wants to admit that their hygiene has fallen off a bit since social distancing began. I definitely don’t! However, taking 15 minutes to wash your face, brush your teeth, do your hair, and slap on some mascara and lip balm will make you feel soooo much better!
  10. Acceptance – accept the uncertainty and just focus on what you can do to make yourself feel better.

These are hard times. I won’t lie to you and say I’m doing well. I’m not. I’m nearly three weeks behind in my history and chemistry classes. My motivation is nonexistent, and frankly, I’m depressed. I just have to accept what is and work on making tomorrow better.

PRACTICING SELF-CARE IS THE FIRST STEP TO GETTING BETTER.

Sincerely,

Marie